February means...

It's officially February. This means that if God wants me to spend a month in Cambodia this year I have about five months and eighteen days
1. To let God prepare my heart to be open to His calling.
2. To continue to pray and see if it really is God's will for me to go.
3. To raise as much money as I need to go.
If God wants me to go He WILL prepare the way. God cares about what's going to happen with my future.
"[29] Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. [30] But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. [31] Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows." -Matthew 10:29-31
God doesn't just know when a sparrow dies, He plans every individual sparrow's death. In the same way, if God wants me to go He will not just know that I am going, He will actually plan the path I take to get there. He is completely in control of my future. I don't say this just to give me an excuse to not seek God, or to just believe that He will make the funds appear from nowhere. I say this because it is such a wondrous thought to know that my summer is in the hands of the Almighty God of the Universe! Although with myself I know that there is no way I could spiritually prepare for what God wants, I know that with His strength and power I can do anything. As of now I believe God wants me to go to Cambodia in July instead of August, but if He doesn't want me to, I wont. I find this so important and worth repeating because it gives me a reason to not be afraid. A reason to trust that He has a plan and to know that that trust is not misplaced. I know that He is in control, I know He will be glorified by the outcome, and I pray that I would be His willing servant, to stay or go as soon as He tells me.
Please continue to pray that whatever happens in my life will be met with thanksgiving and rejoicing.